"...With God all things are possible." ~ Matt 19:26

So we spent the day yesterday at my son's house, and I was able once again to witness the power of prayer in action.

We visited my son and his family yesterday for a late Thanksgiving dinner.  It was obvious as soon as I walked in that he was in immediate crisis. I went outside and texted those people that I know are praying people asking for immediate, urgent prayer.  Within half an hour, I could feel the tension subside somewhat, and pretty soon, he came downstairs and joined the family. I could FEEL the prayers.

This situation is not over.  But I believe that God is ultimately in control.  Whatever my son is going through will ultimately work to make him a more whole, integrated human being.  In the interim, I pray for guidance and wisdom to only say or do what's God's will. I try to keep my focus on God, and not on the immediate situation, which feels pretty hopeless at moment.  I pray that my son and daughter-in-law are given knowledge of God's will for them today, and the power to carry that out.

Just for today, I will live through this day only and not tackle my whole life's problem at once.

When it gets dark enough, you can see the stars

Today's Reminder:

If I so choose, I can regard everything that happens in my life as a gift from which I can learn and grow.  Today, I will find something positive hidden within a difficult situation and allow myself to be grateful.  I may be surprised at how much a little gratitude can help.  ~ Courage To Change, Nov. 27

Another restless night.  Somewhere in the dark, my normal motherly concern for a child who is in crisis turns to toxic obsessiveness.  This is how the disease works on me.  I struggle at night to keep my mind from creating the worst possible outcomes. I don't know what it is about the dark, but perspective escapes me at night.  (Maybe I should just go outside and look at the stars? LOL 😉)

Fortunately, night turns to day, and I am able to reign in my destructive thoughts and turn to the tools of the program. This is when I can begin again to trust that God is really in control, and that in the end, it will be OK, regardless of how things look today.

Everything will be OK in the end.  If it's not OK, then it's not the end.

Today I am Grateful that God has no Grandchildren

I'm going to take this blog in a different direction.  Politics are just agitating me right now, and that's not the place I care to live in at the moment.  I've decided that maybe I need to go in a more positive direction and focus on what I can change, and take life on life's terms.

So, first let me introduce myself.  I'm a grateful member of Al Anon for more than 25 years. You would think that I would have it all together after all that time, right? LOL, no. I still need the support and wisdom that I find in program.  One thing I've learned over the years is that it's a process, not an event.

I love the slogans. I call it my "bumper sticker philosophy". Let Go and Let God. Easy Does It. One Day at a Time. These are the things that get me through when I'm struggling.  So, I've decided that this will be the theme for my blog for the time being.  Sort of like a diary, but hopefully if anyone out there reads it, it will help you also.

Anyway, I'm having a bit of a difficult weekend. I was at a meeting once, and someone said "I've come to the conclusion that when my kids are not OK, then I'm not OK, and that's OK". That's pretty much where I'm at today. My son is really having a rough time right now, and I have that familiar knot in my stomach. I should say that he's 34 years old, and married with two kids.  You would think at this point I could really detach, right? Well, I can to the point of not interfering. I know what not to get involved in, thanks to this program. So, I turn to the program to ease my own discomfort at watching a loved one struggle. And to know that it's really my own fear that I am feeling.  I have seen many miracles in my life, I know that my higher power is in control - in my head. Just for today, my gut is not convinced. So, I will turn to the tools that this program gave me. I will get through today and wait for the next miracle. I can do something for 12 hours that would appall me if I had to keep it up for a lifetime.

Today, I am grateful that God has no grandchildren.